baby annihilation
she/they, 19, chicago
idk who needs to hear this rn but suffering is not noble. take the tylenol
One time when I was younger I was refusing to take headache medicine and my mom said “the person who invented that medicine is probably so sad you won’t let them help you” and now every time I find myself denying medicine I just imagine the saddest scientist making those big wet eyes like “why won’t you let me help” and whoop then I take the medicine
I feel like this year has been the most formative in who i will be as an adult and who i am as a young adult, so much more than i did at 18. 19 has been so educational compared to 18 and I feel like I am going through my second puberty.
I’m Going and changing and growing. Fleetwood mac. And I have loved it. And I feel like I am truly doing things on my own and proving I can do what I believe I can and learning to love and exist and live on my own.
Maybe this is getting better. Maybe my therapist is right, I am growing and learning and succeeding. It’s not treatment-resistant, at least not anymore.
My childhood room is clean, I love my family, I have an incredible summer to look forward to, I passed my classes and I am going to be a surgeon. I have been told I deserve this space. This life. This way. This right.
And I am gonna take that space. Have this life. Go my way. And I have every right to do it.
Anyways, I love you. And I’m so glad I had your help and love and joy through this chronic period of my life.
i love when flowers close in the evening like good night girl i love you sleep tight
